Birthday

Everyone says, do celebrate
for today, the 6th of May,
29 years back,
was my first birthday.

And I wonder…..
WHAT?

Trashed dreams and lost hopes
A weakened soul, a pathetic loser
That is all that I am
Should this embodiment of defeat
I celebrate?

I was born like the millions
that were born that day
What was new in it?
What was out of the way?
A year of untruth added,
A year of sins added,
Should these achievements of mine,
I celebrate?

A life of transition.....
purity to impurity,
innocence to cunningness,
love to lust,
good to evil.
Depraving by the day,
Corrupting by the day,
Should this life of mine
I celebrate?

Where did I go wrong?

Love -
What a beautiful word
What a beautiful thought
What a beautiful dream
A word never to be honoured
A thought never to be truly felt
A dream never to be realized

How often, how many times
Have you and I utterred
Our undying love,
unconditional, unsullied, uncorrupted.
Yet, tied to the whims
conditional to what is comfortable -
to you.

I had somehow been living
Wretched or otherwise I never cared
Was happy even though fake
I had never dared
to bare my soul to myself
to let the feel of human touch
deep within my heart.

You came in, on your terms
You made me yours, on your terms
You said be mine, I abided
Now you say no more
You have to go, for
you cannot compromize
the beliefs and practices
With which you have been brought.
And I stare at you, in disbelief
Shattered, destroyed and crying.

Only question that encircles me
Only misery the engulfs me
Like you say,
if it wasnt my fault,
then why the hell am I suffering,
where did I go wrong?

Breathing You

As the last steps
Moved on to that stairs
Leading me into the plane
I switched off from the world,
But you.

I made myself comfortable
Bag, pillow and blanket in place
Switched on the TV
Relaxed myself from everything,
But you.

The plane took its flight
Delicious snacks got served
Nice food, lovely champagne
And an interesting movie
Was loving it and missing nothing,
But you.

The hotel room nice and comfortable
Have a TV, Kitchen, AC for company
Quiet hours for me to dwindle
Switch off from tensions at home,
But you.

You have been there With me,
running all over
in my mind, in my heart
Never thought I love you
So much, it hurts to be apart.
In these few hours,
I have realized
You are the air I breathe,
Death it would be,
Without you.